Despite Our Best Efforts

Dear Family and Friends,

What does “by faith,” “standing in grace,” “hoping in the glory of God,” look like when the downpour of loss and grief and life’s “hard” pelts, relentless?

Jacqui and I were drenched in metaphorical truth this morning.

Why blog after 16 months of nothing?  Because we all get pelted – despite our best efforts.

Forever grateful,

Becky

P.S. Quick Update

  • I’m learning what it looks like to rejoice when facing all kinds of grief. Breast Cancer #2 launched three years of life’s “hard.” Currently grieving the loss of my Mom. (July 18, 1940 – May 19, 2018 – two years after we lost Dad)IMG_4992
  • Good News! All six-month mammograms have been clear!
  • Daily Tamoxifen (meds to keep cells from feeding on estrogen) seems to be working – no metastases – but the sleep disturbances and memory issue side-effects have been life-altering.

Satisfy us in the morning with Your unfailing love so that we may rejoice and be glad all our days! Psalm 90:14

When It’s NOT Cancer – but Toxic Nonetheless: Living “By Faith”

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Feeling “Dearly Loved!” I passionately declared “But God is BIGGER!” in the Stories of Lasting Change video Harvest produced last spring. Four minutes worth seeing! Inspiring (and you’ll want a “But God” tattoo!) May my life show this truth – more and more! 

Dear Family and Friends,

When a cancer survivor experiences stomach pain daily for nearly a month, her oncologist orders a CT to “make sure we didn’t miss anything.”

But if that cancer survivor has recently watched the entire Sherlock series for the first time, she might dig for a less obvious (and more benign!) explanation for her pain.

Tim is calling me “Sherlock,” and I like it! (You may recall: Sherlock is actually a girl’s name.)

After some investigation and experimentation, I have been pain free for a week. And I think I’ve discovered the source.

Super gross BUT not cancer! (Remember the hickeys and spider bites after breastcancer#1?)

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Bittersweet.Bald.But God! Celebrating One Year Cancer-Free!

Dear Family and Friends,

I want to be the “one leper” who turns back to thank Jesus (and I want to bring you with me!) Join me? (P.S. In case you missed my Happy Dance on Facebook, doc called Wednesday, “Your MRI doesn’t show any brain abnormalities. Happy Thanksgiving!”)

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Declaring His Faithfulness: When Knowing About God is not Enough

Dear Friends and Family,

(MUCH shorter video – under three minutes! Woo hoo!)

Cancer stinks. (Update coming soon. Seeing doc tomorrow. Keep praying.) But God…

One good coming from the stink is my renewed commitment to tell my God stories. I’m hoping each story will reveal the God of the Bible, and that each of you will say your next yes to God.

This story: He invites all of us to know Him – not only know about Him.

I’ve come from knowing very little about God, to knowing more about Him, to knowing Him, to the thrill of knowing Him – more and more.

Current example:  I know the Bible teaches God is our rest; He’s shade in the heat. We can sing for joy in the shadow of His wings. I believe this is true because the Bible tells me so.

Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;  my hope comes from him.  Psalm 62:5

But this year – through the cancer – I’m coming to know God, experientially, as my rest, shade, and shadow (where I really can sing for joy!).

Here’s how it looks for me:

I curl up in my bed and imagine myself at the throne of grace – which God invites us to come, boldly!

And I just stay. Right there.

Where my BIG God, who dearly loves me, keeps His eye on me. I’m quiet.

Rest. Shade. Shadow.

That’s it. I don’t do anything. I’m just there. And getting a glimpse of what “cease striving and know that I am God” looks like.

In what way do you know about God but don’t know Him? And you want to! You believe but from the stands – like a fan. But God invites us to know Him, like a “Chad hits hard!” tackle!

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. Ephesians 1:17

Thanking God for you! Praying we know Him – more and more.

Love, Becky (His.Princess.Warrior.)

(Who, by faith, is finding Him faithful as my rest, shade, and shadow for joyful singing!

He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us again. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many. (2 Corinthians 1:10-11)

 

Declaring His Faithfulness: When we need to KNOW God directs our steps (and loves to lavish grace!)

Dear Family and Friends,

Another story declaring God’s faithfulness to the next generation, another story showing Him BIG and wonderful – to an average woman, to the least.

Yikes! When Zach told me the story is 11:40, I wanted a do-over! No can do, says Zach.

But please go ahead and watch this one. It’s worth the nearly 12 minutes – the story is good (and my expressions and gestures are pretty funny!). The next story will be shorter!! Much shorter!

(And let me tell you how I ended up with ORANGE hair!)

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