Despite Our Best Efforts

Dear Family and Friends,

What does “by faith,” “standing in grace,” “hoping in the glory of God,” look like when the downpour of loss and grief and life’s “hard” pelts, relentless?

Jacqui and I were drenched in metaphorical truth this morning.

Why blog after 16 months of nothing?  Because we all get pelted – despite our best efforts.

Forever grateful,

Becky

P.S. Quick Update

  • I’m learning what it looks like to rejoice when facing all kinds of grief. Breast Cancer #2 launched three years of life’s “hard.” Currently grieving the loss of my Mom. (July 18, 1940 – May 19, 2018 – two years after we lost Dad)IMG_4992
  • Good News! All six-month mammograms have been clear!
  • Daily Tamoxifen (meds to keep cells from feeding on estrogen) seems to be working – no metastases – but the sleep disturbances and memory issue side-effects have been life-altering.

Satisfy us in the morning with Your unfailing love so that we may rejoice and be glad all our days! Psalm 90:14

When It’s NOT Cancer – but Toxic Nonetheless: Living “By Faith”

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Feeling “Dearly Loved!” I passionately declared “But God is BIGGER!” in the Stories of Lasting Change video Harvest produced last spring. Four minutes worth seeing! Inspiring (and you’ll want a “But God” tattoo!) May my life show this truth – more and more! 

Dear Family and Friends,

When a cancer survivor experiences stomach pain daily for nearly a month, her oncologist orders a CT to “make sure we didn’t miss anything.”

But if that cancer survivor has recently watched the entire Sherlock series for the first time, she might dig for a less obvious (and more benign!) explanation for her pain.

Tim is calling me “Sherlock,” and I like it! (You may recall: Sherlock is actually a girl’s name.)

After some investigation and experimentation, I have been pain free for a week. And I think I’ve discovered the source.

Super gross BUT not cancer! (Remember the hickeys and spider bites after breastcancer#1?)

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Declaring His Faithfulness: When Knowing About God is not Enough

Dear Friends and Family,

(MUCH shorter video – under three minutes! Woo hoo!)

Cancer stinks. (Update coming soon. Seeing doc tomorrow. Keep praying.) But God…

One good coming from the stink is my renewed commitment to tell my God stories. I’m hoping each story will reveal the God of the Bible, and that each of you will say your next yes to God.

This story: He invites all of us to know Him – not only know about Him.

I’ve come from knowing very little about God, to knowing more about Him, to knowing Him, to the thrill of knowing Him – more and more.

Current example:  I know the Bible teaches God is our rest; He’s shade in the heat. We can sing for joy in the shadow of His wings. I believe this is true because the Bible tells me so.

Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;  my hope comes from him.  Psalm 62:5

But this year – through the cancer – I’m coming to know God, experientially, as my rest, shade, and shadow (where I really can sing for joy!).

Here’s how it looks for me:

I curl up in my bed and imagine myself at the throne of grace – which God invites us to come, boldly!

And I just stay. Right there.

Where my BIG God, who dearly loves me, keeps His eye on me. I’m quiet.

Rest. Shade. Shadow.

That’s it. I don’t do anything. I’m just there. And getting a glimpse of what “cease striving and know that I am God” looks like.

In what way do you know about God but don’t know Him? And you want to! You believe but from the stands – like a fan. But God invites us to know Him, like a “Chad hits hard!” tackle!

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. Ephesians 1:17

Thanking God for you! Praying we know Him – more and more.

Love, Becky (His.Princess.Warrior.)

(Who, by faith, is finding Him faithful as my rest, shade, and shadow for joyful singing!

He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us again. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many. (2 Corinthians 1:10-11)

 

Update 5/28 – Trending Stronger

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Thank you for helping us with your prayers!

A friend from school told me her church prays for me every morning, and last week I met a handful of people who said, “You don’t know me, but I feel like I know you. I pray for you every night.” I am so encouraged when you remind me, “We’re praying for you!”

Here’s the Latest:

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Facing the Facts (Part 1) – A Year of Drought

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Dear praying friends and family,

Do you know I’m blogging for three reasons: Prayer. Declare. Share.? Have you checked out the “About” page? Because…

As my final chemo treatment approaches (Tuesday), I’m super reflective and need to write about all three, so I’m posting in four parts: 1. A Year of Drought  2. Forever Side Effects  3. Girlhood Dreams  4. Lifelong Prognosis. Unless…

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Update 2/14 – For Better or Worse

scanned-photo114.jpgDear praying family and friends,

You’re tenderly asking, “How are you feeling?” As promised, here’s my Update – but it’s not coming from steroid induced “Power Princess” as I had anticipated in my previous post.

  • Becky’s Fairy Tale World:  “Bibbidi-Bobbidi-Boo,” magic wands, and dancing the night away with Productivity.
  • Becky’s Fractured Fairy Tale: The “Super Ball” felt more like a mosh pit!

Here’s the Latest:

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